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WHY am I having the hardest time with this?

You just sit down and WRITE A LETTER.

Takes about 5 seconds.

And I CAN'T.

Do I not know what to say?

That's a lame excuse.

Of course I know what to say.

I just lack the capacity to write a simple letter, that's all.

Dear James, Collin, Doug, Nefi, Sterling, Tanner, Cassidy and Mitchell

No, I haven't forgotten you.

Yes, I do miss you all quite terribly. And in very different ways.

I promise I will write soon.

And do a better job at keeping up with my correspondence.

Sincerely,

A very slacker-ish Meliosa/Melissa/Special Case

23

Wait, what?

I find myself saying that a lot lately. Maybe it's the fact that I'm always too tired to fully pay attention to anything anyone is saying the first time. Or maybe it's because the things people are saying lately are hard to believe or completely off base. It might be a healthy mixture of both.

Things these days are a bit hectic. Sears is slowly sucking my soul like a dementor's kiss, and I feel like pulling a Weasley and riding my broomstick off into the sunset and leaving school behind forever. My days seem to only get longer, and there certainly aren't enough hours to do everything that needs to be done. Also, my procrastination has gotten worse. I'll finally find some time to do things I've been needing to do, and I'll just sit on the couch and find ways to distract myself (like I did today.)

Also, things inside my head are more than hectic. What with attempting to figure out my love life (or lack thereof), feelings for certain people are getting twisted and tangled into feelings I have had for a while for others. This is certainly not good. I am positive nothing good can come from this. I need to focus on now, and not what has been or what could be, particularly the latter. I can't keep thinking about the unknown. And I think that's what's bothering me the most: the fact that it IS the unknown. I'm a very curious person. I need to know certain things. And this is one thing I am certain I must know. But why am I so hung up on it? There has to be a reason, but I guess only time will tell.

Sigh. Enough rambling for one day. This blog post is too cryptic anyhow for anyone but myself to enjoy.

It Must Be True.

WHAT I SEE:

WHAT CUSTOMERS SEE:

[Really, though. There's no other explanation for it.]