Today, I decided to finally cancel my Myspace account. I have been meaning to do this for a while, but have put off for various reasons:
-What if I miss it?
-I'll lose the pictures.
-Think of the memories!
-I should keep it, just in case.
And then it hit me. None of these reasons were good reasons for keeping it around. I took a look around, and it just reminded me of part of my life that I have moved past. It's been at least a year since I've even logged on. I couldn't remember my password. I've moved on.
So why am I still keeping it around?
I'll tell you why.
I have this terrible habit. It's called 'being a pack rat'.
There are pros and cons to this.
Pro: I remember everything!
Con: I only remember everything because I still have everything.
Pro: Things come in handy all the time.
Con: Sometimes I forget what I have.
Pro: I save some great stuff!
Con: I also save some garbage.
Pro: I have all my schoolwork saved since Kindergarten.
Con: I also have odd things like candy wrappers, ticket stubs, tags from clothes, and other things that I save because 'one day I might need it'.
This is the problem: ONE DAY I MIGHT NEED IT.
This little sentence, this tiny thought, keeps me holding onto various tidbits from my past that are really just piles of junk cluttering my space and mind. It's keeping me stuck in Memory Lane, and I think it's time to do some deep cleaning, beginning with the deletion of my Myspace.
It's such a liberating feeling, which is the complete opposite of what I was expecting. I thought I would be sad to see everything go, but I feel fantastic. This is the beginning of the end: the end of a pack rat.
But I won't be sad to see it all go.
I'll always have memories.
And in the end, that's what really matters. Not these material things that I keep saving, not the scraps of paper that I let pile up in the Abyss.
But my memories.
All the good times.
And the bad.
And the crazy.
I'll keep those forever.